Today I write this because I have finally looked at the other side of the question “Why me, God?” Constantly I am wondering ‘why me’ because of a negative event in my life. No one wants to believe that they deserve something bad, especially when trying to be the best person they can be. However, what if the negative, no matter how undesirable it may be, always leads to a positive moment or realization in life? Maybe we just can’t see it as that in that moment.
Throughout life there will be many ups and downs and episodes of happiness mixed with sadness. The one question that has always been at the back of my mind is “why me?” This doesn’t necessarily have to be only when I go through my “down” days but also when I feel at the top of the world and like nothing can touch me. What is my purpose in life? Why am I allowed to live the life I am, while others have to suffer? Is there more that I can do to help?
We as human beings were given a huge chance to become something, to do something substantial, and fulfill the will of God. We may forget this from time to time. We might not even believe in a God. But there is some kind of force or higher being that continues to follow and guide us through life despite our recognition of Him, Her, or It. He continues to wake you up each and every morning. Why?
Having been given this life is a privilege because not every being or thing in this life is allowed to speak their mind. I believe there is spirit in animals and nature, for example. So why were those spirits not allowed the chance to be me? Because of my belief in reincarnation, I believe that there must have been something in my past life that I did well enough to still have the mind to speak to God and pray, but I committed enough sin that I wasn’t able to get out of this birth-death cycle to stay right next to God in my real home, Heaven. I was blessed enough to get a second chance.
So why me or you who are reading this? Because there IS a purpose. Each of our lives were planned from before we were even born. God has laid out a plan for me and you but we have different routes to get there. In addition, there is a plot twist! He gave us free will! So although we have a mission in this life, we can easily find obstacles and hiccups because we choose to do what our heart desires (which may not always be the right path). But as human beings we learn. Plus, I believe God has always had his hand on our head, guiding the way out of these road blocks.
It is so easy to judge another person. This is especially true when someone does something that is not morally correct. Granted, there are some things in life where we just can’t give another chance. However, who are we to judge? God still allows this person to have another chance, to wake up, and to right his or her wrongs. So why does my ego get in the way and and allow me to be so hard on someone just trying to get their life back on track? I may not agree with their way, but their life is not mine to live. We should never give up the love we have instilled in us for another human being. Even the worst person we know has Gods love running through him or her and we should always allow him or her to feel that. Maybe that is our purpose.
I woke up filled with so much light, happiness, and an intention to write this today. I feel as if God wants to use me to tell people going through it that this is NOT the end. There is heaven! And heaven can be achieved on Earth, if we all truly try. It doesn’t necessarily have to become a reality after we die. Maybe that has always been part of the plan but we have forgotten because of the race to become the best, get the most money, have the flashiest jewelry, etc.
There will always be sadness, suffering, heartbreak, and loss. However, there is always a reason. I don’t know what the reason is. But through these moments in life we also see love, togetherness, and human effort to help one in need. God is in all of these moments. Like have you ever felt the satisfaction of having a prayer answered just when you were ready to give up? It simply cannot be expressed in words. He wants us to see that no matter what we are going through there is always someone he leads in our lives to help. Sometimes it can be a stranger who takes a detour in life to reassure us that God got you! He got you like the pinky promise the sun makes with the moon to let her shine every night as he takes a break from the day.
God wants me to use my words today so you can find that love in your heart. Have you seen someone who has been suffering or just not been themselves? Maybe try to comfort them through words. Tell them you see him or her and are there for them if they need anything. Even if you can’t give them something tangible, give them your time. Like that song by Joan Osborne that asks “what if God was one of us?” Let us hear each others prayers out and try to do what God would. He is watching and listening and I truly believe that every person I have ever met has had a purpose in my life to teach me something. Most of the ups and downs in life have taught me that I am SO VERY LOVED! Everywhere I look, I am always looking at either a familiar or an unfamiliar face full of love for me. They may not express it through the words “I love you,” but it is there. We have all been programmed to love and not hate. Like the pure heart of a baby, we were created to smile, cuddle, hug, be innocent, and enjoy the exact moment we are in. And if you think about it, those are probably some of your favorite moments with the people that you love.
Why me, God? Because He knew I had a chance to touch someones life in a loving way. You have a reason to live even if you may not feel like it. There are so many people that love you no matter what you are going through in life. Life is a hard and long journey. But it could be the most beautiful journey if you only try to find God or the spirit of happiness in every moment. You will be just fine. And if someone hasn’t told you today, I LOVE YOU, YOU MATTER, AND I AM SO HAPPY THAT YOU ARE ALIVE ON THIS BLESSED DAY!
Love your life. Love the people around you. And spread a form of love to family, friends, colleagues, and even strangers. ❤